So against the odds, and up against several internal candidates, I managed to land myself the science teaching job I wanted! Hurrah!
It’s also a week since my dog died, and I’m STILL finding dog hairs all over the house!
He’s gone now.
Took ‘puppy’ to the vet this morning, as he was shaking and vomited twice.
His bloods came back clear, so no liver or kidney damage, but it’s been 48 hours since he started falling over, and he’s got worse not better.
The vet has given him a steroid injection just over an hour ago in a bid to boost his appetite and help him recover, but so far, he’s just lying down and shaking.
Went to the butcher, bought some delicious big fat pork sausages, and they’re just sizzling in the pan as I type. Surely he can’t refuse his favourite food?!?
I think I know that this will be his last meal, and we’ll be taking him back to the vets this evening.
I’m not feeling great. Not sure why, think it might just be anxiety and stress of having SO much to do on this PGCE.
I feel tight chested.
I can’t relax.
My fingers and toes are always freezing, even worse when I’m using the keyboard at the computer!
I keep dropping things.
I keep walking into things.
Struggling to concentrate.
Does this sound like stress or anxiety?!
It was about 6 months ago our dog collapsed, passed out, and lost control of his whole body with his bladder emptying on the carpet. We took him to the vet who told us that it was a seizure, the cause is unknown, it happens in older dogs, and it might happen again and get worse, they might be very infrequent, or he might not have another one.
We did have another one a month later. Then another one a few weeks after that. But what amazes me is that our nearly 14 year old dog appears to have learned to fight them. He knows what’s about to happen to him, his muscles all tense, then he drops to the floor, but manages to stay conscious. After about 48 hours, he usually bounces back and appears livelier than ever, bouncing round like a loon!
This time he’s “collapsed” 6 times in the last 24 hours though. When I say collapsed, he was staggering like a drunk, then flumped on to the floor. For the first time he collapsed on his walk last night, then this morning, I looked out the window to see my other half carrying him home – he’d only managed a small part of his walk and couldn’t go on – VERY unlike our dog, who LOVES his walks!
He’s now lying on the rug in the lounge, can’t even be bothered to move onto his bed, and doesn’t even want his favourite biscuits.
My OH was in tears this morning. It’s only the second time I’ve ever seen him cry, and it was awful. He’s had “puppy” (as we call him) since he was 1.
I’m hoping puppy will feel better soon, and just bounce back. I want to see his waggy tail again. When he was younger, he got so excited his tail actually spun like a helicopter.
Given the PGCE is one of the few ways into teaching, then paying £9000 seems somewhat a rip off – people don’t have to PAY to do an apprenticeship or to get into other careers, whereas I’m being charged £9k for a course that only qualifies me to do one thing!
So is it worth it?
For the PGCE year, you actually only have about 160 hours timetabled within the university, so at £9000, that works out as £56.25 an hour!
Working that out makes me ANGRY! The quality of some of our lectures have been appalling, poorly prepared, and some pitched at completely the wrong target audience – not even worth a 1p, let alone over £50!!
So where does all our £9000 go? There’s 180 on the course, so that’s over £1.6 Million the University is raking in. I guess about 20 staff have been involved on our course, so they need paying, some more than others as I’m assuming tutors and academics get more than admin?! Even if they averaged £30k per annum each, that’s only £600k, with over £1 Million remaining.
A little bit is spent on printing handouts for us.
A very small amount is used to subsidise transport to get to placements, although most people I know are having to cough up at least £25 a week to get to their schools.
Personally, I feel that at £9000, the PGCE is a rip off, and with hindsight, I would have done the GTP, although I didn’t have time on my side when I made my decision to apply.
I am only grateful that I am at an “Outstanding” University, rather than having paid £9000 for a course elsewhere.
If they want to attract GOOD teachers, then they need to realise that a PGCE Is NOT a course they should be charging £9000 for. It should be FREE, candidates should be screened carefully to see if they can cope with the course, and the bursaries should be money to live off.
My advice to others – do the GTP route, or whatever the new scheme is called.
As we were at university last week, my school mentor took the lesson 1 on genetic disorders, and asked me to do lesson 2. No problem!
So, following the vague scheme of work, I plan lesson 2 on cystic fibrosis. It took me two hours, as I didn’t know much about it, so obviously had to know more than the kids!
Today he tells me he actually taught the symptoms of BOTH genetic disorders, so I now need to do about how both of them are inherited. WTF?!?! So now I have a lesson planned that they’ve already done, and the stuff he wants ME to do is based on worksheets that I don’t have access to. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
I know the PGCE year is meant to be tough, but when time is so precious due to having a 2 year old, I really get SO cross when people waste me time like this.
Forget an interviewee lying in an interview to cover up a spell of unemployment or something – what about when the actual interviewer lies?!
Since leaving work, my replacement has now quit, and his replacement lasted all of 2 days before phoning to say he wasn’t coming back. Oh, and someone else who started just after I left quit too!
Why? Well, that would be the manager that interviewed them LYING about the type of work they’d be doing. He shows them the new shiny office that’s just had £250k spent on it, he shows them all the amazing products that HE’S designed (he hasn’t, but they don’t know that…), and then he tells them about all the amazing design engineering work that they’ll be doing. Sounds fab huh?! WRONG. What he fails to tell them is that 90% of their work is paperwork.
The manager is SO desperate for more staff, he just keeps lying. He also doesn’t know the difference between a product designer (those who make things look pretty) and a design engineer (those that make things work), and having lost 3 of the latter, keeps replacing people with felt tip fairies er… I mean product designers. Don’t get me wrong, their styling abilities are amazing, but their mechanical knowledge and ability is so poor, they’re completely incompatible with the job. They need 75% mechanical design engineers, and 25% product designers – in reality they have 80% product designers!
So, if you ever sit through an interview for a company that has lime green boob shaped splodges on the wall, then RUN AWAY!!!
Aaahhh, just noticed a correlation between last 3 pills in the packet and feeling depressed! Feeling WAY more cheerful again now, although with a week of uni rather than lessons and planning, it’s nice to have a little weight off my shoulders!
Reflecting on the interview, I had been warned the new-ish headteacher wasn’t popular, and my own university mentor, who used to work there (and quit because…??????) didn’t have a good word to say. The headteacher was too obsessed with how the school looked (pretty buildings, nice uniforms etc…) rather than the kids themselves. She observed the first half of my lesson, and her presence in the classroom didn’t even register with the kids! The staff also seemed somewhat despondent, given it was pay day!
Anyway, onwards and upwards, I’m feeling goooooooooooooooooood!