At the 12 week scan I refused to buy a ticket to purchase scan photos until they had told me there was a heart beat. I was fearing the worst again, so totally missed the bit when she said there were TWO heartbeats!! OMG I am having TWINS!
We had a private scan the other week, as I am still feeling really anxious about the whole thing and paranoid I will lose the pregnancy or they will find something wrong. They were both wriggling and definitely doing OK. One is a boy, and the other we think is a girl but cannot be sure.
I feel my next milestone is the 20 week anomaly scan, making sure they are both definitely OK. I am SO frightened they are going to tell me something is wrong.
There will be no hiding the bump when I go back to school next week – I’m quite skinny so the pot belly definitely looks like baby, although I am sure the kids will believe me if I told them I had taken up speed hotdog eating or something.
I feel so excited yet at the same time terrified. OMG OMG OMG.
I have always believed in fate, and feel totally blessed that after such heart ache of two missed miscarriages, I not have the chance of being a mum again to two babies.